...Where nothing seems to work out right. I swear, I want to slap everybody! And the worst part of it all is that I'm still in the midst of my trial. I am so flustered right now, all I can do is pray that I don't do anything stupid.
I'm hurting so bad right now. I feel like if I drove off a cliff, I would be in less pain. I'm hurting so bad right now that it hurts to cry. You know how hard it is to be in pain and can't cry? And to think there are people in this world going through much worse than I. I can't understand how they deal with it outside of God.
Right now, dark thoughts are rising in my mind, and I am so close to acting them out, it's not even funny. I am completely broken now. Nothing much else I can do but get it over with.
I'm so ready give up. I'm tired of hurting. Tired of pain. Tired of people treating me like excrement. I'm so sick of living I don't know what to do....
Well I got some ideas, but they aren't good.
I'm being honest.
Peace and Blessings,
Bumble.
I am praying for you, girl. Gird yourself up! Be strong and look to God to sustain you in this time. It is only a test and the thing about a test is that it doesn't last forever. Expect to pass!
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